i spend my days walking

i walk with my aunt with my cousin alone i walk over to see my niece and nephew to help my cousin prepare a meal 2 meals for my other cousin who is sick i sleep in until 9am i average 9 hours per night i feel guilty for all of this at the same time i feel this is the best possible use of my time of course it is the best possible use of my time it is the only use of my time do you know why that hamburger is the best you have ever had? because it is the one right there the only one they say that is the path to enlightenment that was the path for one person i'm on my own path my own way to awakening i feel more and more alive every day maybe i feel a little guilty for being "lazy" but more than anything i just feel so present and i don't think i can feel guilty and present at the same time.