i used a flip phone for the second half of 2023

i dropped my iphone on simón lopez and a trufi ran over it. i stopped my motorcycle in the middle of the street to go grab it, a passerby shook his head at me

i shook my head at myself all year

i almost killed myself in 2023. standing by a busy road late at night i screamed and screamed and screamed, "ya no quiero estar, ya no quiero existir"

my culito grabbed me into a bear hug and took me home i told him ale esto ya no es casual. i feel like nothing i do is casual

i kept listening to dermont kennedy over and over, better days are coming he says

i almost wrote out the other ways i self-harmed last year but i don't have to remember those moments, i have a choice and i choose presence, gratefulness, i choose life

what is the opposite of resentfulness? that is what i choose.