i just spent the night in the hospital

i feel ashamed. i feel anxious. i feel afraid. i feel lonely. anna me acompañó, held my hand (figuratively) played the role of support of confidant it is in these moments that more than anything i want a partner or my mother i want someone else to solve my problems to hold my head between their hands to tell me i'm being silly to tell me this is beautiful this little piece of existence that i get to be a part of that i was chosen for i am so small and so big all at the same time i try to maintain perspective but sometimes dear universe i would really like to have some of the things that i don't in this moment.